I am officially done nursing Owen. :(
It is definitely bittersweet...more bitter than sweet for me, at least at the moment. I just feel sad right now. Last night was the last time I nursed Owen. It didn't really hit me though until tonight when I tucked him in to bed without nursing him this evening. We always have the same routine, bath, nurse, books, kisses, sleep. But this time I just went straight to the kisses and sleep. I did give him his sippy cup with some milk just make sure he was full. Then off to bed he went and as I slipped out of his room I couldn't help but think about our nursing journey.
It really hasn't been easy for us, nursing. I had mastitis just 2 weeks after having Owen. Then he had a hard time latching onto one side so it was pumping AND nursing. Then off to work I went and I pumped my days away, hoping I wouldn't lose my milk supply because nursing is what kept me feeling close to Owen when I was gone 8+ hours a day. Then after having a cold and taking cold medicine which dried me up and after a very stressful last few weeks of teaching, I almost lost my milk supply and Owen didn't want to nurse AT ALL. But he was only 5 months old and I was determined to continue. So after a month of struggling and more struggling, I regained my milk and Owen wanted to nurse again. I also had to watch my diet like crazy. If I didn't eat or drink enough my milk supply would lessen. If I worked out even a few times a week like I used to, my milk supply would lessen. I definitely had to put myself completely second and just focus on nursing. But of course I am glad I did. :) And of course I know it could've been worse or more difficult.
I am so grateful I fought hard for this. I can't even explain the emotional bond and closeness I have felt to him through nursing. I love it so much and it has really been so special for us.
I decided to wean him 3 weeks ago when he began to walk more often. He seemed ready and I felt like I didn't want to start any later or when I was just fed up with it. So I took a week to wean each feeding. I am really glad I have done it this way. It has been a great transition time and I am also glad I waited until Owen was ready too. I didn't want to force him just because he was one. I wanted it to be natural.
I really am so proud of him. He has done so great through this whole process. He's been a little bit clingy but I can't complain. I have been clingy to him too. :)
After walking out of Owen's room tonight, Tyson said "Don't worry he'll still love you.....at least for another 12 years, and then he'll love you again 6 years after that." And he didn't stop there...."Oh and you'll get to nurse our 11 other children too." haha very funny. It did make me feel better though... :)
It is definitely bittersweet...more bitter than sweet for me, at least at the moment. I just feel sad right now. Last night was the last time I nursed Owen. It didn't really hit me though until tonight when I tucked him in to bed without nursing him this evening. We always have the same routine, bath, nurse, books, kisses, sleep. But this time I just went straight to the kisses and sleep. I did give him his sippy cup with some milk just make sure he was full. Then off to bed he went and as I slipped out of his room I couldn't help but think about our nursing journey.
It really hasn't been easy for us, nursing. I had mastitis just 2 weeks after having Owen. Then he had a hard time latching onto one side so it was pumping AND nursing. Then off to work I went and I pumped my days away, hoping I wouldn't lose my milk supply because nursing is what kept me feeling close to Owen when I was gone 8+ hours a day. Then after having a cold and taking cold medicine which dried me up and after a very stressful last few weeks of teaching, I almost lost my milk supply and Owen didn't want to nurse AT ALL. But he was only 5 months old and I was determined to continue. So after a month of struggling and more struggling, I regained my milk and Owen wanted to nurse again. I also had to watch my diet like crazy. If I didn't eat or drink enough my milk supply would lessen. If I worked out even a few times a week like I used to, my milk supply would lessen. I definitely had to put myself completely second and just focus on nursing. But of course I am glad I did. :) And of course I know it could've been worse or more difficult.
I am so grateful I fought hard for this. I can't even explain the emotional bond and closeness I have felt to him through nursing. I love it so much and it has really been so special for us.
I decided to wean him 3 weeks ago when he began to walk more often. He seemed ready and I felt like I didn't want to start any later or when I was just fed up with it. So I took a week to wean each feeding. I am really glad I have done it this way. It has been a great transition time and I am also glad I waited until Owen was ready too. I didn't want to force him just because he was one. I wanted it to be natural.
I really am so proud of him. He has done so great through this whole process. He's been a little bit clingy but I can't complain. I have been clingy to him too. :)
After walking out of Owen's room tonight, Tyson said "Don't worry he'll still love you.....at least for another 12 years, and then he'll love you again 6 years after that." And he didn't stop there...."Oh and you'll get to nurse our 11 other children too." haha very funny. It did make me feel better though... :)
4 comments:
Great comfort from Tyson! That made me laugh out loud! It's so sad to watch your baby grow up, but as my husband reminds me, would I really want him to be a baby forever? Of course not, I want him to grow and learn and try new things. (It's just kinda hard. I feel your pain).
Aren't the encouraging words of a husband the most tender thing? Owen is an adorable little boy. Good job!
I am such a baby! I am totally crying reading this post. I am so not ready for this, but luckily I still have at least 8 more months to go. I'm proud of you for sticking it out and working so hard for it. It's not an easy thing to do, but it's so worth it. You are a good mom.
What a journey! I am so proud of you for getting your supply back after all those challenges. I loved nursing the twins and am happy to do so for our future children, such a sweet and precious time especially if you have worked so hard for it. Nursing twins was not a walk in the park so I was so sad when it was over. Bittersweet for sure. Well done!
And sweet Tyson. 11 children?! Ha! :) Bless him.
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